The 12 Day Countdown to 24; What I’ve Learnt, Day 3

Day 3 really closely coincides with Day 2. Day 2 was that everyone is on their own journey in life, including yourself, and not to be so hard on yourself and where you’re at . Day 3 resonates closely with day 2 because the lesson I’ve learnt in partner with this is that where you are at in life does NOT define who you are.

So what does this mean?

For me, the fact I am not currently in a career I want to be in doesn’t make me lazy, demotivated or not driven. People will try to judge you based on where you’re at in your life and might even compare you to where they’re at. I hate the elitism that comes with this. Friends saying they’ve got more money than me because they work harder and earn more. Good for you for starters, thats amazing. But so what? Because I earn less than you or am working less hours doesn’t mean I’m anything less of a person with goals and aspirations.

Im currently sat in my hotel job and I can only imagine people think I’m still in it because I want a cushty life. For starters, there nothing cushty about working in hotels and I’m sure everyone who’s done it will tell you. Customer service is a BITCH. But, I’m also a bad bitch. I’m still in this job because it works for me right now. It doesn’t define me as a person who’s settles for the sake of it. In fact, it doesn’t define me at all.

Just because you want what you want doesn’t define you. Just like what others want doesn’t define them.

Another one of my personal favourites is, “So you still haven’t made it to Australia then?,” Uh, there is currently a global pandemic happening, so if you could tell me how you expect me to be there right now I’d appreciate that a lot. What I don’t appreciate is the judgement that comes with it. I’m a bum who doesn’t want to work and that BAFFLES ME. I want to EXPLORE, there is SO MUCH MORE to life than sitting at a desk every day, and yeah it might make you happy but it won’t make me happy! And that DOESN’T DEFINE ME AS A PERSON.

I can be hardworking without the aspiration goals of working 70+ hour weeks or the typical norm of what is seen to be right. I feel this lesson can be very person specific and situational, and I feel that it is not my aspirations in life an my goals that define me as a person because My personality does that for me. And when you meet me you can take from that what you will. But don’t ever judge me based on what I want in life, and don’t let anyone ever do the same to you.

KNOW YOUR WORTH.

May Reading Round Up!

She’s done it again, I smashed my 20 books of 2020 as my reading goal so I’m absolutely going for 30 books now. This month has been really enjoyable with most of my reads but some not so much! So here is what I’ve managed to get through this month and what I would recommend!

A Map of Days / Ransom Riggs (The Miss Peregrines Series book #4)

This book was a serious let down, as was the 5th book in the series below as well. I loved the storyline in the first 3 books and was so into them. I feel Ransom Riggs really should have just stopped at the third book in the series, super disappointing.

Conference of the Birds / Ransom Riggs (The Miss Peregrines Series book #5)

Same as the above, another book which I felt was truly disappointing. I won’t say anymore on this because no one likes to start on a negative note!

The Wives / Tarryn Fisher

This was a gripping book which really made me think, with one hell of an ending. I could sense all the way through that something was going to happen, I just wasn’t sure what. Although it did drag at times it was all from the POV of the main character and sometimes I wondered if I could skip parts (obviously I didn’t) but I highly recommend this one!

Turtles All the Way Down / John Green

I’ve always wanted to read this book and I loved the storyline and friendship between the two main female characters. I learnt a lot in terms of the anxiety Aza experiences. I also love the relationship between the main girl, Aza, and the boy, it wasn’t your typical love story which I enjoyed due to the unfortunate circumstaces mixed in with murder mystery. And as a girl who used to write fanfiction, I loved how that aspect was included within the storyline and friendship between the girls!

Pines (Book #1) / Blake Crouch

THIS ENTIRE SERIES ABSOLUTELY BANGED. I was hooked from the first chapter, I hadn’t read such a good series since I read the Lunar Chronicles. The whole premise was fantastic and It just NEVER STOPPED. Something was always happening, I literally finished one book and got straight onto the other without hesitation. See the other books below in the series!

Wayward (Book #2) / Blake Crouch

The Last Town (Book #3) / Blake Crouch

The Tattooist of Auchwitz / Heather Morris

This was a book that really got me right in my heart and in my feels. I loved this book so so much I bought a physical copy. I found it fascinating learning about the german camps and Lale’s experiencer and the tattooist of those who arrived. But the ultimate killer for me was how throughout so much hardship, A love story still developed and in completely engulfed my heart. I can’t wait to read Cilka’s Journey, the next book from this one!

Normal People / Sally Rooney

I did not understand the hype for this book. Although I enjoyed the premise of the story it did only get a 3 star on Goodreads from me. It threw me how there are no speech marks in the book, so I regularly had to go back and re read passages to figure out who was talking and that really threw me off. The storyline itself was interesting and you knew that the two main characters, no matter what they did or went through, would always go back to each other. Even though maybe, just maybe, they weren’t meant to be at all.

Battle Scars / Jason Fox

A really interesting and eye-opening autobiography from Jason Fox regarding PTSD and the things he experiences at war. There was a lot of things I didn’t know about PTSD and the effects it has on those who return from war which were thoroughly interesting. It was heartbreaking how much it took for him to come forward and say he had a problem and it was destroying him from the inside out. Although learning about the outcomes of speaking out about this and providing the service needed for others to recover is heroic in itself.

The Secret Race / Tyler Hamilton

This book had me. I had absolutely NO interest in cycling at all, whatsoever. So I was a bit apprehensive picking this up. YET AGAIN, I WAS MISTAKEN. I loved this book from start to finish. A few points; Lance Armstrong is a missive dick. I did not realise that to be a top cyclist you basically had to dope. I like how it was almost a secret code back in the day for cycling that everyone did (doping) EPO or BB’s, BB’s (blood bags or blood transfusions) being actually disgusting but if it worked to make you win the Tour De France then it works. The Cycling world is actually SCANDALOUS and I had NO idea. Highly recommend this, you will be shocked at what you’re reading!

Stars Above / Marissa Meyer

Finally, the creme de la creme. This tied up all the loose ends of the Lunar Chronicles series that had me hooked. I was so pleased to find how how Ze’ev (Wolf) was taken and became part of Levana’s Army, show Cress ended up in her satellite, the aftermath of the entire series and how Scarlett and wolf got married and so many more loose ends that were so nicely tied together. It just made my heart swell and when I finished it, yes, I absolutely did cry.

So here you have what I read in May!

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